I've gained awfully lot of weight. I tried to manage without my food diary but clearly I can't. I'm twice heavier than what's comfortable for me. I don't know why I let this happen to be. I can't stand if I go back to fat. This serious weight gain requires serious weapons. No matter how unhealthy it gets. I know that I'm totally obsessed and that people probably wouldn't accept what I'm doing to myself if they knew. I wish I could like myself as I am but I feel disgusted when I think about the way I am.
OK. It's 6.24am and I still got a lot to do.