I said to Aleksi that I don't want to stay in touch anymore. It was really bitchy thing to do, I know. He had faith in me and I let him down. But I'm living with someone else so I have moved on, clearly. And I just couldn't saw myself sharing my "new life" with him. It would have been too awkward. In fact I can't see myself sharing anything with him. We stayed together for five years but I can't really imagine myself being friends with him. My friends are different.