No matter what you say, I know they're okay, my boobs are okay

I don't remember when my breasts started to grow, suddenly I just had them. I guess it should have been exciting, but I was mostly embarrassed. I didn't dare to ask my mother to buy me bras so I had to wear sport tops for a very long time and it wasn't cool at all. Finally my mom noticed the change and bought me my first bra and later my big sisters also started to donate their small bras to me. I never get to pick them by myself. I just wore what I had.

If I ever get a baby girl... I would take her to a proper shop when the time comes and let her choose her first bra by herself. I would make it a special occasion. Because it is a special occasion. It's about growing up and becoming a woman. I wouldn't just throw her the cheapest bra I could find like my mom did.

My current relationship with bras is quite practical. I prefer the color black because it's still black after I machine wash it. And I always machine wash because I'm lazy. Luckily I have learned quite well what kind of bras can handle it so it's not even a problem. It just narrows down the selection. I like to keep my bras simple anyway, so I usually look for bras without heavy decoration. I know the bows and stuff are supposed to be pretty and make you look sexier... but I already have a boyfriend.

My size also narrows down the selection. It just recently (that's why I'm writing this post, in case you were wondering) revealed to me that I'm not a "standard" size anymore. I was 75C before I got anorexic, in my anorexic phase I was almost 75B... but now that I'm back to the same weight as I was before, I'm suddenly 75D/E. And all the shops are full of lovely A, B and C cups, but the bigger sizes are harder to find... Especially because they have to be black and machine washable as well. And did I mentioned "affordable" already?

It's so frustrating!

I want my small boobs back!

Kids! Don't grow boobs. It causes you nothing but troubles and headache.

Project update

Now it's official! I have knitted my first pair of socks. I made J.R. to wear my white tights so I could get a nice picture of them. He does basically anything for me if I just ask, cross-dressing and everything. Though I guess he didn't expect me to blog about it. But on the other hand, he's dating a blogger... what else could he expect? I'm blogging it all because without him my life would be way too boring to blog about.



And I've been working on my fawn too! I finally found some wire for the legs so it should be finished soon. The legs are just really boring to crochet and to sew in. And I'm not exactly happy with the outcome either, but at least it's something different. And it looks kinda cute... still.


I bet you haven't seen a fawn with eight spider legs yet?

By the way, our living room floor looks always like a mess after my serious crafting projects. I can't help it... I'm so good at creating all kind of mess and chaos. But I blame the bloody tables! They're always too small! I demand bigger tables! Who's with me?


J.R. is showing off his lovely legs again.

There is still one final picture I want to show to you... Remember how I gave a plastic green room and some herb seeds to J.R. as a birthday gift? Some of the seeds have already sprouted! It's supposed to be rocket but J.R. is a bit skeptical and thinks it's just some random weeds.


Looks like the spring is coming...

Everything important happened yesterday but this post I wrote today

J.R. turned twenty one yesterday, but since he's a bit socially challenged, he didn't throw a birthday party like I did. His parents are going to visit us later in this week though, but I think J.R. invited them only because he wanted a reason to bake a big chocolate cake. Well, I can't force anyone to be more excited about birthdays and I'm definitely not excited about my own either: I'm turning twenty three this year!

So, we didn't do anything special yesterday, but I baked some cookies for my birthday boy. I used my favorite cookie recipe, but I used white and dark chocolate instead of hard sugar coated chocolate buttons. Works every time. I also gave him a birthday present. This year I gave him a tiny plastic greenhouse, herb seeds, some soil, flower bulbs, fertilizer for plants and a book about balcony gardens (we live in an apartment building so we don't have a real garden). And today he's been playing a little gardener, changing new soil and planting seeds:


J.R. said I could use his picture if his face isn't showing. Thanks!

J.R. also finished my mittens yesterday. They turned out really nice, but I guess it was no surprise since I chose the pattern by myself. I like the color and I like the way the cables stand out. I'm so glad that I lost my old mittens! And yes, I have to show off my face whenever it's possible. I blame my webcam.


Amoena says "Hi" and looks rather stupid.

Yesterday we also got some mail from America. Two weeks ago I sent some Finnish tea to Mika (he's a brother of my brother-in-law) and he sent some American tea for me. He wrote in his letter that he couldn't find any other loose tea from his local shops than Lipton. We wondered for a moment if Americans drink loose tea at all. We have such a wide selection here in Finland! And then we realized how silly we were. Our "local shop" is actually a really big super market so it's no wonder we have a wide selection of everything. What sense of proportion?


Our whole aparment smells like tea because of this!

Happy mittens are all alike; every unhappy mitten is unhappy in its own way.

I lost my mittens on Tuesday. I don't know how it happened. I'm pretty sure that I put them in my bag, but later at home I couldn't find them. I kinda miss them. My mom knitted them for me like years ago, and even though they weren't so pretty, I wore them every winter. And now they are gone. J.R. is already knitting me new mittens and they are going to look very sweet. So maybe losing my mittens wasn't so bad thing after all.


Our kitchen table is always messy.

I've been knitting quite actively too, except yesterday when I spent the evening reading Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy. I just felt more like reading than knitting. Anyway. I knitted today at school (I kinda like knitting at school because it helps me through the most boring lectures) and finished my first sock. I'm pretty pleased with the result. I didn't mess up much, just something with the heel. I'll do better next time. And I found out that I can't read knitting patterns either: J.R. had to help me through all the confusing parts. I'm so happy that I have him.


What "elegant way" to photograph socks?

Tea bread... for muffin lovers

Last night I had a dream that J.R. wanted a bread machine. I guess I had the dream because we ate a super yummy baguette with tomatoes, pepperoni and cheese before going to bed... Anyway. Couple years ago my aunt gave me a silicone muffin tin. It was a very thoughtful gift, but after I tried it twice I decided it's no good for baking muffins. At the time I also liked to bake tea bread, because it was so easy to do. I didn't like its dryness though. No matter how I tweaked the recipe, it was always too dry for my taste. Until I tried to combine these two things... and later some cottage cheese too.

Here's the recipe:

Tea bread for muffin lovers
(no baking skills required, makes about six large muffins)

Mix these dry ingredients in a bowl:

about 2 dl of wheat flour
about 2 dl of oatmeal
about 2,5 teaspoons of baking powder
about 2 dl of cottage cheese (and some grated cheese too if you want)
(a pinch of salt if your cheese is salt-free or if you just like salt)

Add these ingredients to the bowl too and mix:

about 35 grams of melted butter (or little less or little more depending on how your diet is going)
about 1,5 dl of milk

Make about six muffins (use the silicone muffin tin, duh?) and put some grated cheese on the top. Put in the oven (225°C) and let them bake for 15 minutes.


Ready to be eaten by J.R. He loves these.

Unlike regular tea bread (= made out the same recipe without cottage cheese), tea bread muffins are very moist and cheesy. And they taste perfect with... tea. Who wouldn't have guessed. Anyway. If you don't have cottage cheese, you can replace it with regular grated cheese (the muffins will be less moist then, though). And if you don't have a silicone muffin tin, you can make just one flat bread (pat it flat with your mealy hand and poke it with a fork) on a tin. Or if you're on a diet, use skim milk and cut down with the grated cheese... You simply can't go wrong with this recipe.