Amy Winehouse

This blog only touches the surface of my life. I have tried to dig deeper but every time I write something little more personal here I come later and delete it. I know that some of my friends read this blog and I'm afraid how my personal shit (Julia loves that phrase) may affect them. I have seen it all happen before: You open your heart with no expectations. But they start to feel responsible since they now know and then they feel that they should do something to make things better. And nobody wants that kind of responsibility. So they start to avoid you and finally you loose them. I have done it too so I know what I'm talking about. That's the reason why I'm not sharing my secrets here or anywhere.

Now back to happier things. Desthea dropped me a comment. It was written in Finnish but it's totally OK because a) nobody reads this blog anyway and b) if somebody reads this I bet she/he is a Finn. Anyway. Desthea complimented my English which is something I have heard before. But I have to spoil this image: I don't understand English when it's spoken. I often mix words and I can't watch a movie without subtitles. And, God no, I'm not speaking English. And I guess my grammar sucks... But somehow I feel very comfortable when writing or reading English.

At the moment I'm listening to Amy Winehouse. I just got her album titled "Back To Black" but don't ask how or where. All I have to say is that her voice is quite addictive and that I'm in love with this album. Now I totally understand all the hype around her.

I should update this blog much more often.

It's Alright

I'm really tired. I spent so much time answering to all my e-mails and doing things that I don't even have to. I think I'm too kind. I try to bring some joy to people I don't even know. I know that eventually this is killing me. But I don't know how to stop. This is out of control and I think that all this nerd stuff is actually harming my relationship with Aleksi. I don't know when exactly my spare time became my job.

I'm really tired. I woke up 5.15 am. School was a bore and after school I have been doing a lot. For no reason "Bed of Roses" by Mindless Self Indulgence has been playing in my head during the day. As a song it is quite miserable but the lyrics make so much sense to me.

On And On

I'm very aware that I have not posted for a quite long time. I have a reason for that: First I was visiting my parents at Viiala for several days. And when I returned here I found out something nasty. And my life just turned very upside down. And since I know I cannot write any personal shit here, I decided not to blog at all. But don't worry about me. Life goes on even though I thought mine was over.

I wish I could have a very very very close friend.

Playing Truant

I didn't plan to play truant today but I just couldn't get up. I feel a bit guilty for leaving Julia to "study" alone, but it was only few hours so I guess it went fine. I was going to bring the newest issue of Glamour magazine with me, but I bring it tomorrow instead.

Even though I was really tired at 6am, I woke up at 10am. And I have been very efficient today. I went back to Waldo's to change my new shoes to bigger size. Yes, I'm the only person in the world who buys too small shoes time after time. I also wanted to change the colour, but there were no sizes left. Then I did some window shopping. I found few scarves I liked, but I have too many already. Yesterday I read Style Bytes and now I have very mixed feelings about Palestinian scarves. I would like to have one but at the same time I'm worried about my imago. I think that the best solution is to avoid them.

After window shopping I went to library. I borrowed few non-fiction books and read a big pile of magazines. Of course I didn't actually pile them, since you can only take one magazine at time.

I have noticed that even though I read a lot of fashion magazines and blogs, I'm much more into street style. I like things with edge and personality.

Slip-On

Today I purchased a pair of Vans Slip-Ons. I know that I'm like at least five years too old to wear slip-ons but I just couldn't resist. I admit that I have always admired those shoes. I have always wanted a pair. My intention was only to try them on and then slowly leave them at the store. But those were way too comfortable to leave behind. I like Vans Slip-Ons because they are so laid-back and that they also represent some kind of rebel semipunk attitude to me. Now I just have to buy some clothes that go with them.



I also nearly bought a pair of black skinny jeans. But then I realize that they are called as skinny jeans because they are meant to skinny people. I would like to own skinny jeans but I think that trend is already pretty much over. I'm always late.

I have to pull myself together since I have totally ruined my vlc-diet. I just can't believe how bloated I am. Maybe when I have lost like two kilograms I can seriously consider some skinny jeans. If they still sell them at 2050.