Weekend

I'm going to Viiala today. I don't know what I'm supposed to do there but I'm going anyway. I don't have so much to do here either. At least I got my own TV there nowadays so I can watch Sex and the City without my parents.

I had a really nice weekend. We watched three movies. Alpha Dog was one of the movies we watched and I don't know what to think about it. Basically it was a bit boring and there was not much going on the film anyway. I hoped that they would have left that kid alone but I knew it wasn't going to happen since it was based on a true story and those never end well. I just need to have a happy ending or otherwise I feel that I have been fooled. Watching movies should be fun.

We usually sleep the window open, but lately there has been some bugs that that eat us (or at least me) during the night. Today I woke up with three new bites and they itch. It's so not nice.

On Saturday we went to a picnic. Our destination was a nice Aurora park. It is really peaceful and beautiful. We have been there several times already and it is definitely one of my favourite parks. The sun was shining so now I got a mild tan on my legs. We played cards and just hang out. It was nice. I forgot to put the sun lotion to my neck so it burned a little.

OK. I better get packing.

Flood

I have had dreams about floods recently. In first dream I was trying to find a way home but the water kept rising and I got trapped. There were bridges everywhere but most of them were broken or under water. I couldn't escape. I can't remember the second dream, but I remember that there was a big flood and once again I got trapped. The setting was very different, but I was still very scared. Anyway. Those were all nightmares to me.

I believe that dreams are trying to tell something to us. Not all of them, but some of them. And I always try to find out which ones are hidden messages from the subconscious. I own a book about dreams. It's quite short but it still contains all the main symbols. My mother once got me a long one from flea market but I didn't take it. It was written by some kind of psychics and it was all bullshit. "If you see a white horse in your dream your husband will die" and so on. I prefer Freudian theories.

So anyway. I checked some of my favourite dream sites for interpretation. And here is what they say about my flood dreams:

Flood: To see a raging flood with its muddy debris, signifies that you will have much unsettling occurrences and tribulations in life. Your repressed emotions may be overwhelming you.

Water: To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.

Could be true.

Zombie

I'm loosing my mind. Don't give a damn though.

Julia asked me to go to the Linnanmäki amusement park with her. I refused to go because I cannot remember when was the last time I truly enjoyed that kind of amusement. But I appreciated the invitation of course.

A little while ago I received a comment from Kerttu. She said that she reads my blog. So I guess this blog is not as bad as I use to think. I got all these catchy lines and everything now when I think about it. It's kind of cool to know that there are at least three human beings who find my blog amusing! But don't get me wrong: mainly this blog is about self-pity and boredom.

I saw Music and Lyrics couple movies ago. I know it is a bit weird to say "couple movies ago" but I don't know any other way to express this. I watch a lot of movies and I don't even remember all of them. It was recently but I have seen like dozen of movies after that. So anyway. I really liked it. I like movies that make me smile widely. And I definitely love the theme song:



I like the demo version better. I think that Drews voice is better than Haley Bennetts. More likeable.

Pro-Age

I had a very positive moment. It went away.

I always think that other people have like really high standards and then I'm very surprised when I realize that they are like dating someone really fugly for example.

I have a very high expectations what comes to myself. I expect myself to have a body of a 16 years old BOY even though I do nothing about it. It's quite hilarious how I cannot accept the fact that I have like hips. You know, hips that can give a birth to a small cow or something. I have to come to realize that normal girls actually have curves and there is nothing I can do about it. I can't really change my bone structure, can I. So why try? I fluctuate, OK?

There is this other thing I hope to change too even though I know it is impossible. I have oily/combination skin. I will always have it. First of all I should be lucky to even have skin. I should not fight against but to be happy for what I got. I got a skin that does not age so quickly. Let's remember the fact that I don't smoke, use alcohol or sun bathe. And the fact that I keep extra good care of my skin since it is a bit breakout-y. Eventually I will look more radiant and more younger than most of the people in my age. I will have less wrinkles! Hooray!

I so have to grow up.

I know that Julia probably loves my opening line.

Playing

I'm having hordeolum once again. No, it's not a nasty STD but quite harmless (yet painful) eye infection. It goes away itself in a time.

Yesterday I played "Secret Files: Tunguska" all day. It's a problem solving game so I'm not good at it. That's why I took my lap top next to me. I played the game on my normal PC and I read the walktrough guide from the lap top. So technically I just followed the guide step by step and not solve any of the problems by myself. But I still call that playing. It's not my fault that the game is too difficult for me.