Little Miss Sunshine

I almost upgraded to Blogger Beta. Phew. I don't feel like upgrading yet. Just a while ago I whined on my LJ how all the web sites I like to visit change all the time. I like when the look of the site changes, if it's better of course, but what really annoys me is when the most important functions change. And that's why I'm against Blogger Beta. But don't worry, you blogger people, I will upgrade eventually.

Today we decided to go movies. I wanted to see Little Miss Sunshine. It was a very warm and funny film, and I absolutely loved it. It's a shame that it is only shown in a small theaters. People should be more aware of this great movie. Aleksi liked it too. In his opinion it copied Napoleon Dynamite in the end, but I disagreed. Yes, there was a dance scene in the end, but it was nothing like that and the motive was very different.

I'm Officially Back

Here is a list of my Christmas presents:

- "Pyhiinvaellus" and "Veronika päättää kuolla" by Paulo Coelho
- "Harry Potter ja Puoliverinen prinssi" by J.K. Rowling
- "Kesän varjot" by Bo Carpelan
- Nail Accessories set
- Bath Accessories set
- Chocolate and candy
- Pink pajama
- Mittens
- Slippers
- Baby blue cardigan
- White poncho
- feather socks
- Sea Battle game
- Some stuff for school
- Two different multivitamins
- Movie tickets (!)
- Mug with a lid
- Candles
- Pink grapefruit body butter from The Body Shop
- 510 magnetic words for fridge poetry
- Money (260e + 150e for new glasses)
- Pillow and Marimekko pillowcase (Aleksi got the same set)
- Soapstone bowl and aromatic oil for sauna

There is a chance that I forgot something.

Update News

It's my Christmas holiday and I'm going to visit my parents. I don't know when I'm coming back, but probably before 28.12. Until that here will be no updates.

Happy holidays!

Good News

I was supposed to have a clinic day on Thursday. But today I was informed that we have something else. Nobody knows what. What makes it good news: I can skip the bloody morning! There is no point of skipping clinic days because you have to do them later. But if you skip any other normal lecture, it's gone for good. So let make this clear. I do skip lectures every now and then, when I'm tired or bored or just pissed. And I can't see nothing wrong in that.

I should go to studying. I have TWO exams tomorrow and I have not even got started.

No News

I have gained few grams. I don't really care even though it means that all my good plans failed. I was meant to drop few extra kilograms for Christmas, so I could eat a lot of chocolate and such without thinking calories or weight gaining/loosing. I don't have enough time for that anymore, so basically it does not matter if I don't loose any weight during next two weeks because I have to loose so much after it anyway. And for some weird reason I ate a lot of all-bran cereals when I got home from school.

I have bought pretty much all of my Christmas presents now. I'm quite pleased because I found lots of nice stuff. I only have to get something for Aleksi. I have no ideas and my time is running out.



"She wanted to stop reading it... but she had nothing better to do!"

Exhausted

I woke up early after three to four hours of sleep. I was really tired, but I had to go to school because I had an exam. It was about laws, with is really weird since I'm not in a law school. So basically it was just bullshit. Anyway. I passed the exam so I have nothing to worry about.

Then we had this group exam. I'm not into team working, I have never been. I would like to do everything in my way, but in a group you have to listen to others too. I really tried to focus on but it was so boring and I was so tired that I barely did anything. I'm so sure that somebody is going to reveal to the teacher how little I did. But honestly, I don't give a damn. School sucks anyway (angst angst).

After school I slept for few hours. And then I went to shopping. I bought one Christmas present. Now I have bought almost all of them. Except the most important ones. I would like to give something really nice to Julia, because she is the only reason why school is bearable. And I would like to give something cool to Aleksi, since I love him so much. I just have to figure out what those could be.

There is this guy who lives above us. He plays cello a lot. I can hear it. Anyway. The point was that I'm exhausted and this is not going to be any easier. I have to woke up early early early early and I have to days of clinic and three exams. Just great.

Claiming Somebody Anorexic Is Rude

It's no surprise that I read a lot of blogs. Every now and then I find some blogs that are about loosing weight. And almost every time I also find a comment which says something like "you're anorexic, you're going to have an eating disorder". It really bothers me. I have had that kind of comment too.

I overheard this conversation at school:

- I'm so hungry, I'm going to grab something to eat from the cafeteria
- I'm hungry too but I'm trying to loose few kilograms
- You're are what? Why? What are you thinking?
- I'm going to a vacation and I want to look good on bikini!
- It's still stupid!

It's like if you're in a normal weight and you want to loose some, you automatically get eating disorder and die anorexic. Who said that only truly fat people can loose weight? It sounds a bit unfair to me.

I have never had BMI over 21. So in that point of view I have always been "enough heavy" for my height. But still I have always wanted to loose some weight. Ever since I was like 12 and realized that I could be thinner. But back then I had no clue how to drop weight and I pretty much did nothing about it, and nowadays I'm so happy that I didn't. I wouldn't known how to do it healthy.

But now I'm dieting and I'm not anorexic. I'm not sick. I love to eat and I do eat. And I will not feel guilty about the fact that I have no medical reason to loose weight. It's just something I want to do and since I'm old enough to take care of myself, why wouldn't I make my dream come true?

First I lost eight kilograms. Then I gained a few and now I have lost them again. And I love the process. Especially now when I take it far more serious than before. And by "serious" I mean that I'm counting calories. I really like to keep my food diary. I also mark down my weights: I weight myself on every Friday to see how I have progressed during the week and on every Monday to see what kind of harm did the weekend do. It's quite good system. Those are the days I also eat a bit more than normally.

And what do I eat then? I eat pretty much basic stuff. I love bread with diet coke. I like everything with diet coke in a matter or fact. I love fat-free sugar-free yoghurt. I love my all-bran cereals. I like apples. I don't eat actual meals so often, but that is more financial issue. I don't eat much, but I'm definitely not starving myself. I also eat multivitamin tablets to make sure that I get all the important vitamins and minerals every day.

There are people who are sick even though they're not all skin and bones. And there are skinny people who just happen to be that way. And I think that claiming somebody anorexic is actually quite rude. Let's just focus on fat people.

The Point

Blogging is just something I do. And I have blogged ever since I got my first own computer and that was about five years ago. So I blogged before it was even cool or fashionable. These two blogs I have here in Blogger are quite fresh meat, but I had also have some blogs for years.

When I didn't have own computer (now I have pretty much two) I used to write old fashioned Dear Diary. But just how lame is that? To write something only you can read. This blogging thing is just so much more interesting. First of all, somebody else reads this shit too, I know that for sure since I use Google analytics. And sometimes, believe it or not, I even got comments!

As there are people who don't understand online living, there are also people who don't understand blogging. "What's the point?" What is the point!? The point is that you can freely express yourself in this World Wide Web. Isn't that pretty much what everybody wants: an audience. Don't we all want to write a bestseller, act in a box-office movie, sing a #1 song or whatever. This is an alternative way of being famous: I can be heard even though I'm nobody.

Somebody over the sea can read what I write and feel connected.

Isn't that just amazing? Isn't that just enough to be the point?

Partially Sighted

Today I got my eyesight checked. I'm pretty much blind soon. It's Ok since I like my glasses and the nerd image they give. It just worries me how quickly my sight worsen. At the moment it is -5.50 and -5.25. It's a lot.

The optician asked me if I read a lot. I was like "yes, I read a lot". I thought it was over but then she asked if I spend a lot time on computer. It was not a nice question because I'm a bit shamed about how much I actually spend time on computer. Like today when I got home. I almost immediately turned this thing on and while it was turning on I ate some snack; in front of the computer of course. But this is who I am. I'm a nerd and this is what I do. But some people don't understand this kind of living. So I answered to her: "I don't really count". Because I don't have to. I'm online pretty much all the time.

Dear Santa

I know it is a bit early, but I want to make sure that you get this message. I have been a really good girl and I have deserved some great gifts. So here is my short wish list:

- Kitchen scales (!!!)
- Invent Your Scent Minteva (+ Zinzibar)
- Anything from The Body Shop or Freeman Cosmetics
- New bath robe + big towels
- These two books in this language: Annan perhe and Anna opettajana by Montgomery
- Any hair products you think I might need
- Note books (I mean notes that you can play)
- Cable driver for my Nokia 6111 (!!!)
- Money + chocolate + money
- DVD's
- Any cool board game (Carcassonne maybe)
- Socks & underwear

That's all.

About Finnish Fashion Blogs

Keeping a fashion blog seems to me the new trend here. There has been fashion related blogs forever, but these blogs that I'm talking about are Finnish and made by quite young girls. In my opinion nobody under 20 can't really understand fashion. I know I'm not right, but it seems like it. Anyway. First there was a one blog which quickly came quite famous via Demi.fi. Then there was like couple more and now they are increasing all the time.

There are few reasons why these fashion blogs bother me. First reason is that some of the writers seem to be incapable to write Finnish language proberly. I could give some horrible examples but I don't want to be rude. The second reason is that every single one of those blogs seem to be copying some more popular blogs; They all have the same template, style to write and subjects to write about. It is really boring. And the third one, they don't update often enough.

So I could give a few advice if you are planning to start your own fashion blog in Finnish.

1. Don't! Read those that already exists.
2. If you really have to, update at least twice a week.
3. Don't copy other blogs. Do something that is completely unique and don't try to be so haute couture all the time.
4. Do pictures instead of links to pictures. Think about your readers.
5. Make your blog look like you. Make your own template.
6. Sign up to a Blogpatrol or Google Analytics or such to see if your work is really worth it.
7. Be committed!!!

And finally, here are some fashion blogs I have been bumped into lately:

Turhamaisuutta
This actually have some potential since it was one of the first blogs and it's not terribly bad. Better language will do the trick. I tend to avoid blogs with ready-to-use blogger templates so I hope that she will make a personal template soon.

Eleganttia
The name of the blog is quite boring and it feels like it is copying the title above. I thought this was copying everything else too, but this is actually more interesting since it's much more personal and down-to-earth. It could update more often though. Template is quite boring but at least it's a bit "pimped".

Hopeisia Helmiä
I don't have any special opinion about this one. It seems to be quite lame, but it has more personal point of view. I appreciate that.

Medaljonki.blog
Same boring template again. Stop using it. Anyway. This doesn't seem to be updated anymore.

Real Diamonds
In my opinion this is copying Turhamaisuutta too much. Don't try to tell me it's a coincidence. If she finds even more personal way to write and maybe a more personal template... and uses links little less. I still think that this one got some potential too.

This was not meant to be a review. It just happened.

New Template Vol. 2

As you can see, I have a new template again. I'm pretty sure this one is going to last more than a day. Yesterday I made another template, but that was way too colorful for me. I like this. It looks simple and clean, and that is the way I like most.

The girl in the background picture is obviously Lindsay Lohan. I have this thing with her. I almost love her, not in a lesbian way, but I'm just obsessed about her. Call me crazy, but deep down in my heart I know that she changed my life. She's just so great. Anyway. I have developed with CSS today. It's the best thing, to learn something new. I know that I'm probably never going to master it as the way I wish, but at least I'm trying to study it. And the most fun part is, there is no books where to study. Only some Internet tutorials. It's so much fun to learn yourself. It gives you that feeling of success.

But it somehow suck that I don't have enough blogs. I can only have one template at time (I don't dare to touch my LL-blog yet). I would like to design more and more and more. It makes me feel so good. Do you need a template? Do you?

Julia, my friend from school, complained today that I don't write as often as she hopes. In other words, it's been a while since I updated properly. I'm going to fix it now since I still have some time before Desperate Housewives.

School. It's not so very great subject but I'm going to talk about it. Today we had to go to clinic. If you don't know, I'm studying to be a dental hygienist, and part of our Studies happen in a clinic. Normally we have to sit and just stare what the older student might do. It's really boring because it can last for hours. But today I have to stare only for 60 minutes and then I was free. And staying that way can be a hard job to do. I mean, even though you don't do anything, you should look like you're in a hurry. If a teachers see you and you have nothing to do, they will make you do something. It's horrible. But today I managed to be free from 9am to 11am. It's my record.

On Saturday I went to my aunt with Aleksi. There was a another girl too. She was half Norwegian. She laughs really loud. Anyway. My aunt cooked as a huge dinner and I ate a lot since it's was all free. As a "poor" student free food is a great thing. After that dinner we went to movies to watch Marie Antoinette. My aunt gave us the tickets. I really liked the movie, and I didn't find it as boring as the critics. I think it was really amusing after all. And it inspired me to created Marie Antoinette themed template, even though I never actually used it. At the movies we also ate my favorite Lumipantteri sweets which I pretty much love.

So I ate a lot. And I gained like 500 grams during the weekend, which depresses me a bit, but I'm so working on it. I know that this low-calorie diet is not actually so healthy, but it works. Pilates and jogging was a lot of fun, but I need to see some results soon. I'm going to start pilates again when I have lost few kilograms more. Maybe. I'm not sure yet since this winter thing has slowed me down. I seem to be quite lazy, and it has nothing to do with my energy lever. I have a lot of energy but I don't feel like doing anything.

We have a Nintendo nowadays. That old retro thing, not the 64 version. We also have lot's of games already, but unfortunately we don't have that thingy that goes from Nintendo to TV. We are going to get it soon anyway. I got a history with Nintendo games. My family didn't actually have a real Nintendo, but we had this "Family Game" version that worked with Nintendo games too. And I loved, loved, loved to play Super Mario with my mother. And since Aleksi has totally missed the whole Nintendo thing (how come I'm not? I wasn't even born when the first Nintendo came out) we decided to get one. It's so cool.

So, Julia, was this enough for you?

New Template

I spent hours making this template. First I thought I was designing this to my other blog, but when I was finished I realized that this template wasn't nearly as nice as I hoped, so I decided to use it here instead.

I had lots of fun while making this since I'm such a nerd. I really like to code CSS even though I'm not so good at it, and I really enjoyed searching through the Lindsay Lohan galleries for the banner pictures. I know I'm going to design more templates in the future. Maybe one day I manage to design template good enough for It's About Lindsay.

You know what bothers me? Blogs without a personal template!

Twenty Something

Sometimes when I think of my age I'm pretty sure it is something around 18. It's a bit weird since I'm twenty. I don't know why I keep believing I'm younger. It's not awful to be this "old" or anything. I just forget my age so easily. Like today when I read a story of a 18-years-old girl and for a moment I thought: "she's at my age" and a moment later a realize how silly I was.

In Judaism, 20 is the age at which a person is responsible for his actions to the Heavenly Court (and is thus culpable for his sins). Wikipedia.

Goldfish Nation

It has been years since I read this following poem. It's written by Wendy Cope, who used to be my favourite poet when I still read poems and loved them. It's quite sad but I don't even like poems so much in these days. When I was much younger I used to write them weekly and read them as often too. I even got something published. Anyway. I still like this one, it's good in Finnish too.

GOLDFISH NATION

In the pond
There are no bombs, no guns, no bullets.
There is no property and no television.
The pond is the territory not of humans
But of the goldfish.
He is better than you.

Goldfish play.
They do not work.
They do not set the alarm clock
And get up at half past seven
And get on a crowded commuter train
And go to the office.
They are playful creatures.
Goldfish play.
Their games are non-competitive -
Swimming into a space and twisting,
Looking for another space.
All day long it's like PE
In a progressive infant school.

Goldfish are intelligent.
They anser to their names.
Go out and sprinkle
Just a pinch of fish food
As you call to them

And see them rising from the muddy depths
To greet you. Sunshine. Goldy.
Flipper. Bertrand Russell.
Maharishi. Name your goldfish
After holy men and sages.
It is appropriate.

'Look on the goldfish,' say the Inkuwala,
'And be at peace.'

The Watatooki of Wideawake Bay
Have a different saying:
'He who contemplates the goldfish
Will grow wiser than a frog.'

Albert Eames of Norwood Fish Society
Believes that his goldfish, Lucky,
Is a bringer of good fortune.
'It's a well-known fact,' he says
'That many goldfish owners in Sout London
'Have won prizes with their Premium Bonds.'

The sex life of the goldfish, it has to be admitted,
Is somewhat less exciting
Than the mating of whales.

The fact is goldfish do not have a sex life.
They breed without physical contact,
Shedding enormous quantities of sperms and eggs
Into the water.

Hundreds and hundres of sperms are attracted
To each egg
And each one tries to bore its way through the shell
But only one succeeds in doing so.

After fertilization, the egg faces tremendous hazards,
Including the danger of being eaten
By the very fish who gave it life.

But some survive. The fry swim. They eat.
They grow. Their scales ripen to gold.
And they play.

Like Buddhists,
Goldfish are disinclined
To get into an argument.
They do not discuss interest rates
Or debate the ordination of women.
On these matters they seem to have no opinion.
They prefer to play.

Ludic, aureate creatures,
Silently chanting, Om,
Gazing at reality with round, unblinking eyes.
Water-angels, glinting in the sunlight.

It's obvious that goldfish are better than people.
Goldfish are better than you.

New Phone

Yesterday my phone decided not to work at all. It was quite funny actually. First the light didn't want to turn off. Then it tilted. And then it decided to turn off itself about in every five minutes. But it probably just wanted to say to me: "go get that new phone your parents promised you months ago".

So I went to and bought a new one. I decided not to take that L'Amour phone I earlier talked about, because this other phone has so much better features including the killer camera. The colour is "frosted pink" and the model is 6111.





It looks like a camera when closed.

I already recorded a new ring tone. It is my favourite quote from "Legally Blonde". I love this phone because it is so possible to customize. I can make my own ring tones, message tones, wall papers, screen savers... How cool is that?

Some Weight Issues

I have gained weight. A lot of weight actually. I don't know how it happened and why it happened so fast. Next thing I knew was that I was like couple kilograms heavier. I know it's not so big deal after all. Just a few kilograms. But I'm afraid there will be more kilograms coming and soon I will be exactly where I started. I worked so hard during the spring to get my weight where I wanted it to be, so I'm really disappointed to myself that I let this happen.

So I'm dieting again. This time I'm even more serious than ever. I'm even keeping a food diary (about 900 calories so far). Today I noticed that is really uncomfortable to eat home made food because it was quite difficult to tell how many calories it had. I can only make a rough guess about how much chicken and rice did I ate. I'm so dreaming about kitchen scales.

I also went to "shopping" today because I was bored and I wanted some light exercising too. Since it is autumn and very rainy and cold I don't feel like going out. So I circled around Sello, which is quite huge mall nearby. I actually bought something: Avocado & Oatmeal Purifying Clay Masque. It was on sale. I'm really into masks and I have quite many of them. Most of them are by Freeman.



By the way I'm really disappointed to Smak's newest album. Only "Nukahdan" sounds fine so far.

This Is An Update

There is a reason why I haven't post anything earlier. I have been busy. During Monday and Tuesday I wrote five pages about developmental psychology. It was not interesting, believe me. I had this book from 1997 and it was so boring and difficult to understand. And yesterday I was very tired of this hard work that I just slept when I got home from school.

So I start this update talking about what I did when I was in Viiala last week. I sewed some simple Barbie clothes for my niece. I kinda love doing them because I can design clothes and then make them happen. Last time I sewed a gorgeous princess dress, but this time I made more everyday clothes. Then I visited numerous flea markets, and I found some nice scarfs:








I think these two have a bit of a Hermés style.

Aleksi came on Thursday and we played The African Star like all the time because there was no better thing to do. It was a lot of fun though. His birthday was on Friday and I gave him following presents: Fazer Ögon cacao powder (so we don't always have to go to Robert's Coffee for Hot Chocolate), marshmallows so we could roast them, The Body Shop's Peppermint Foot Spray and Adidas shinguards. He was very pleased.

Even though I was really tired yesterday, we went to Ikea. It was pretty much ex tempore trip for no reason. But we bought a nice lamp to light our desk. It was pretty cheap too since it cost only 9.95 euros + the lamp. We also bought a plastic jug. So it was a very productive trip indeed.



Hello Kitty figure does not include. I really like that I can move the direction of the light so I can light the desk or my keyboard.

I'm quite sad that Everwood is coming to an end. There is only a couple of episodes to see. And I'm like in love with that show. Thursdays are not Thursdays without Everwood anymore. There will be just a huge hole.

No Updates For A Week!

I'm going to a vacation and therefore here will be no updates. I'll be back on Sunday. Have a nice day!

The Man With A Child In His Eyes

I have been away for a while. My life has been so lame lately that there was nothing to write about. I feel a bit guilty but I try not to.

So couple days ago had this oral English exam. I couldn't pronounce "procedure" correctly, no matter how hard I tried. It was quite hilarious at the moment. I know I'm not bad in English but in that exam I felt that I was. I hope I get like four out of five. I will see that later.

I got one new birthday gift. It was a book called "Suuri Pop Toivelaulukirja 2". I collect them, and I have almost all of them I have ever wanted, so it was a really nice gift. You can see it in the picture, it's the purple one.



So I play "keyboards". I try not to say "piano" because I really don't know how to play such. I play almost daily, and even though I'm not even so good at it I really love it. It's relaxing but still so amusing. I have composed my own songs too, but they're definitely not so good.

For some reason I'm listening to Kate Bush right now. I kept hearing "The Man With The Child In His Eyes" in my head so I decided to actually listen to it. One of my very favourite Kate Bush songs. You may enjoy this Charlotte Church cover.

A Day After Birthday

So I'm twenty years old now. No longer a teenager, but an adult. I'm not so excited as I could be since I feel pretty much like a child. Anyway. I woke up quite early since it was a Sunday. I ate my favourite breakfast and then I went to shower. After shower it was time for my gift. It was packed in a golden box and had also a golden ribbon around it. I knew it had to be some kind of jewel.



This is what I got. It looks quite small in the picture, but it is quite chunky actually. I also got these roses:



Then Aleksi's mother called me. It was some kind of ambush. First she asked if we had any plans, and since we had none she invited us to a lunch and such. So we went there, ate some food and cake and so. They gave me a gift token to Lippupiste. It was nice.

Even though we ate there quite a lot, we decided to go to a pizza too. It was the only plan we had before hand, so of course we had to do it anyway. Later we ate also some tortilla chips with salsa. Those were pretty much all the real delicacies we had.

Today I got an extra present. It was from Julia, which is my friend from school. She gave me this silvery packet with a nice golden bow. I'm going to save it and the wrap too. I can use them again if I want to.





So there was a two cool bath & shower gels. They smell like rubber (for some reason I like that) and something good I can't indetify. There was also a birthday card inside. I don't know if I will ever have the heart to open them.

PS: Thanks for everyone who wished me Happy Birthday!

L'Amour

My birthday is going to be soon. My parents and my uncle said to me earlier that I can get a new cell phone as a birthday present. But there is a "but". Even though they didn't say it, I know it can't be expensive. My current phone is working ok, but it is quite ugly. So I can't see any point to change it if I can't get a lot nicer one.

So this is my current phone with exact colours:



So I have searched through the Nokia site and there is only a few phones I like.



This is my number one choice. In gold or in pink. There are other L'Amour phones I also like, but they are not yet available, or they are way too expensive.

My mother expecially wished that my new phone should not have any special features since thet cost more. What is that about? How could I choose a phone if it can't be the way I want. I want a camera. Evertbody has a camera in their phones nowadays. Why can't I have?

Why in earth did they made such an offer I can't fulfill. I don't want any ugly boring phone since I already have one. It's just stupid. I rather take nothing then. I have never complained about my old phone, so I can't really understand why they thought I need a new one. I would like to have one, of course... But...

50 Dark Movies Hidden In A Painting

This is a really nice game. It totally hooked me until I got all the right answers. There is a big picture full of riddles you have to figure out. The answer is a movie title. It's not easy. Check it out here:

M&M Dark Chocolate

For example try to find "The Ring".

If you're not so good at it, and you feel like giving up, you can find the right answers from here:

Answers.

Smak

I have to confess that I am a quite big fan of Smak. And today, by accident, I heard them playing live. Am I the most luckiest girl in the world or what? I just walked somewhere and there they were. It made me really happy. Smak is the greatest. They sounded absolutely fabulous.

Dragonfly

It's been a while since I posted. I honestly don't know why I am so tired nowadays. I keep on skipping lectures and neglecting all the housework. I try not to blame the autumn. It's my favourite season, for God's sake. I'm even going to have my birthday really soon. Anyway.

I'm starting this post about what happened on Wednesday:

I had school. Skipped some lectures. The same old boring shit. Anyway. I met Virpi. We, of course, went to Ooster. It's my (our) favourite place to hang out and spend some time together. We drank tea, as usually, and smoked a lot. I dare to say that here because I have already said it once. It's not secret anymore, I guess. It was our first time in this month and it was a lot of joy. I can't understand people who smoke regularly, what's the fun then?

So we chatted and laughed. I was quite surprised when I later realized that Virpi didn't mention her My Little Pony collection at all. I mentioned my "hobby", Glamour Magazine, like zillion times.

I came home late. I was really tired. Nearly went straight to bed. But I decided to watch some document about anorexia instead. I couldn't woke up next morning so I once again skipped some lectures.

And now on this is some randoms shit:

I have new shoes. I have had them for a while, I just forget to post about them. They're Ecco shoes. Very comfortable, very expensive. Luckily it was my aunt who buy them.

I definitely need new clothes.

And yesterday I found this dragonfly from our balcony:



Aleksi came home and he is definitely disturbing my concentration, so I stop here. More later.

Volver

Yesterday I went to movies with Aleksi. Normally we watch movies at our home, so it was quite nice for a change. The movie was called "Volver" (Return). I have always liked Almodóvars films and this one was no exception. The plot was very exciting and thrilling. I'm not a special fan of Penélope Cruz, but she did her leading role amazingly well.

This is a plot summary from IMDB:

Raimunda lives in Madrid with her daughter Paula and her husband Paco who's always drunk. Her sister Sole is separated and work clandestinely as a hairstylist for women. The two sisters lost their parents in a fire in La Mancha their birth village years ago. In the village remains only their aunt Paula that continue to speak about her sister Irene, mother of the two, like if she is still alive. When the old aunt die the situation change and the past come back again, in a twist of mystery and suspense.

I definitely recommend this film to everyone.

Wrong Hair

I was a bit tired earlier. It's not a surprise. Anyway. I decided to go to a Sello, even though it was about 17.30 and all the stores close at 18.00. But I had 30 minutes. I went to H&M since it happens to be one of my favourite stores (because it's cheap enough). I tried on all those very fashionable items, but they all looked quite ridiculous on me. It was because of two reasons:

1. I have gained weight again. Not much, but enough that some clothes don't fit properly
2. Because of my hair. I definitely do not have a decent haircut. I don't even have a haircut. And I still have this very dull used-to-be-red color on them. I should got my hair cut and then redyed.

That's all.

Blogilista

I'm a member of the Finnish Blogilista. It makes me quite depressed because my blogs aren't just as popular as I would like them to be. "It's About Lindsay" is doing quite well. It got like two subscribers. This one got none which does not surprise me. I don't know if this is ever going to even have any. I mean, after all, this blog is not so interesting as it could be.

But still a half of my readers (of this blog) come from Blogilista because I have used clever keywords such as: fashion, jogging, relationship and weight loosing. Everybody is interested.

Most of "It's About Lindsay" readers seem to come from News America Now. It makes me excited. Some of them also come from Irc-Galleria, which is not so cool, but still OK.

And how do I know this? It's because I use Blogpatrol. And it's even more depressing than Blogilista but it gives me hope: At least there are about 5-15 visitors per day per blog. It's something for me.

I just wondered if my "It's About Lindsay" blog is a bit freaky. I'm like twenty and I'm totally obsessed. She's just so fabulous, beautiful, talented and funny. I can't stand people who don't like her. She changed my life. Yes. It's freaky, and geeky.

Tired

I'm tired. Even though I just slept fro several hours. I went to bed almost immediately when I came home from school. I just had no other choice than sleep. I didn't slept well last night. I had this school thing I had to do and I somehow kept doing it even though it was really late. And I had to get up about 6am.

I would like to go back to bed, or doing something relaxing, but unfortunately I have to do dishes. How very glamorous (sad).

Something About Music

I grew up listening to classical music. It was 100% my choice. It was not like my parents wanted me to be a some kind of child prodigy. They were actually quite annoyed with the fact that I didn't like "normal music". Most of the kids listened to Spice Girls or such, but I hardly knew who they were (until later when they were already out). So even nowadays, when my musical taste had became quite bad, I have this huge collection of classical CD's. Some of them I have never even listened to. I just kept receiving them.

I used to go to see operas with my aunt. She paid, naturally. I loved it. I have never watch operas on TV. It's not the same thing. It definitely something you have to see live. Anyway. That led me to like Sarah Brightman and Charlotte Church. Both I still adore very much. They both have very magical voices. But it somehow bothers me that Charlotte totally changed her image from "teen angel" to "crazy chick". But she's still very talented. By the way, this is worth watching for.

I don't know what I'm into these days. I listen to music almost daily, but I don't have any special favourites. I use Last.fm, so Ican easily point out whatI have listened mostly. So here is my Last.fm top ten chart.



Somehow it does not look good, and it does not even make so much sense. I don't remember when was the last time I listened to Jack Johnson, for example. I have listened to Lindsay Lohan, Charlotte Church and Christina Aguilera lately, though.

I don't know what this post was supposed to be about. It seems to be about Charlotte Chuch. Love her.

Qué Tal

Today I was supposed to start studying Spanish again. I went there and I was quite excited. It's been a while since I studied it last time, even though I have studied it a lot. But before I even sat down, I found out that I had terribly wrong books. I was aware that those books were supposed to be reissues, but I thought that the difference was something like they changed a word in the page 10 and it wouldn't matter that I had a little bit older books. My books are from 2001-2002 and I know that the following versions were almost the same. So I though... But no. There are completely new issues from this year, which have nothing in common with my books.

So I spoke with the teacher and she said that I can't be there without books and my older books just can't do. She also said that everybody has to buy books because she has been making them and she wants money. I was like "whatever fucker". Anyway. Those books are expensive. I just checked that together they would cost something about 55-60 euros. It's a lot for a poor student like me. So I said to her that I quit. She could strike out my name straight away. And so she did. That was my Spanish studying for this year. It sucks.

When I was coming back home I met my aunt. She said she could buy me those books, but I said no. I know it's quite crazy, but she is going to buy me shoes (as soon as I can find some shoes I want) and she's taking me out to eat and such. I can't expect her to pay everything big for me. I'm not a child anymore. I guess. And I somehow boycott how they mare all those reissues all the time. I mean, some things just don't get old. I mean, how could Spanish language get so old that they had to make a completely new book about it? How? They just want money. And I'm not giving any if I really don't have to.

As I mentioned above, my aunt is really going to buy me shoes. It's just very hard to find a perfect pair. It can take months. So today I was looking for a shoes again. After that Spanish disaster. I went to this shop and there was a very wide selection. But once again, nothing caught my eye. Too much heels on every shoes. I don't want heels and I don't want boots of any kinds.

I'm not trying to scare you, but these are my current shoes. I have had them for years, and I have used them - for years:



Feel free to enlarge.

Yesterday I bough a pashmina scarf. It was on sale (5e). It was very difficult to choose the colour. I battled between violet, peacock blue and gold. This one won.





(Of course I wont match this top and that scarf together in a real life.)

"I like you, but I don't love you"

I have started to disgust myself. It's probably just this typical used-to-be-bullied-girl syndrome haunting me. I just feel that I'm never enough. That there is always something that could be better in my appearance. Like I could be slimmer, I could cut and dye my hair, I could use contact lenses instead of glasses...

I just would like to feel beautiful. At least for a one day. I'm tired of being "pretty" or "cute". They are not synonyms. It's like "love" and "like"; "I like you, but I don't love you", "You're pretty, but you are not beautiful".

It is not much to ask, but it seems to be impossible. I have tried, and I have tried quite hard. But I can never be even near beautiful. And it somehow depresses me. I know I should be happy about myself. At least I'm not completely blind, I'm not overweight, I have few quite nice clothes, I have long hair (even though without any decent haircut or colour), I don't have cellulite (as far as I know), I don't have acne or any other visible disease... Plenty of reasons. But I only see what is wrong in me.

Couple weeks ago while I was in Viiala I wrote a list. As I had no better things to do. Anyway. I wrote this list about things I would like to change in me. And it was a long one. It was not only about my appearance, but it also included lifestyle, studying, activities and relationships. I have not looked it up since, because I know that none of those things have not come true.

I know that I should just give up; accept the fact that I am what I am. And I'm nothing but mediocre and I will never be more.

Hordeolum

I'm going to be very studious this week, since I skipped most of the last week. There is just the problem that I like already skipped a lecture. And I don't have school tomorrow nor Friday. So it's not actually much to do. But hey! There is a bigger possibility to success and actually participate in all the remaining lectures. School is hard. It's hard to get here, it's hard to stay there, and it's surprisingly hard to get out there.

I'm having problems with my online dictionary. My regular dictionary decided to fire itself, and it is no longer letting me in. And then I had this second one, but it is pretty much impossible (pure laziness) to reach when working on laptop. So I'm using whatever I can find. Mostly "Ilmainen Sanakirja". It's OK, but it is just not as comprehensive as I have used to have before.

I was really surprised today when I turned on TV. It was 20.30 and the channel was four. So it was time for 70's Show. I don't normally watch that even though I think it is quite funny and smart. Anyway. I almost immediately learned that Lindsay Lohan was quest starring it, and as pretty much everyone know, I happen to like her a lot. So it kind of made my day.

For a couple of days I have had this small sty (hordeolum) in my eye (this is not the reason why I got antibiotics). It was extremely painful but it is getting better. I gave it that warm cloth treatment today. It really worked and I know it will get better soon. I just wonder how I suddenly happen to have all these problems with my face. Yes, this is extremely interesting.

Finally

I slept really late today. It does not matter since it's Sunday, and Sunday is for sleeping, eating and relaxing.

Yesterday it finally happened. We have been expecting this for a long time. We went to Marhaba, our very favourite pizza place on earth. We always take the same pizzas. So like usually, Aleksi ordered us number five, Romana, and number 11, Calzone, with some extra fillings. We went to sit our regular table and took our regular drinks (Pepsi). And when the pizza guy brought as our pizzas, he asked no questions. He finally learned that the Romana is always for me, and that the Calzone is always for Aleksi.

We go there about once in a week if possible. So it was about a time.

Days Like These

I don't know what to do with days like these. It's Friday. It should be like the second best day in the week. To me they have always been like the most boring. I'm usually alone at home and I just can't get myself entertained.

Don't get me wrong. There is like plenty of things I could do here. I'm just too apathetic to do anything. I don't feel like doing anything. I start to do things but then I just give up. I just can't get the kick out of it. So I'm just waiting for Aleksi to come to be here with me, or the moment I can finally go to sleep. Anything that pulls me away from this dullness and solitude.

I don't complain.

I'm just bored. Which is probably my basic feeling. Anyway. I can't help it since this is my life, and I have done pretty much everything to make it better, but things just wont change.

It's called "giving up".

Kefexin

So I went to see a doctor. He was really nice. He pushed my face with his finger couple times and send me to a lab to be tested. I went to the lab and they take the test they needed. It was clear: no inflammation. The doctor still prescribed me some antibiotics for a week. And all this took over an hour. Why can't they just sell antibiotics without prescriptions. It would be so much easier. I know I needed them, and I got them. Anyway. The doctor said it will be ok, but if it not, and it is going worst during the weekend, I should go to the emergency duty. Otherwise I can wait and ask more antibiotics. But I believe it is going to heal since my face is not as swelled anymore and now I even have some serious drugs to take.

Problem (Not) Solved

So during this day I have done some serious researching over the Internet. I know now what causes my swelling. Since it is not anything so very big, interesting or even infectious, I leave it here. You don't want to know any details. Trust me.

But I definitely need to see a doctor. I need some antibiotics or such. I'm not going to school tommorrow either since my face is still very swelled. It's kinda creepy. I pray it calms down over the weekend. It has to. Or otherwise I fulfill my threat to move in to a steeple.

And I'm seriously learning new words here. I mean just writing this one single post I have learned two words: infectious, and steeple. It's not so record-breaking, but multiply that with all my posts and notice that normally I use even more than two new words.

But I should polish my grammar, though. English has always been one of my favourite subjects at school, but I'm not so good following rules.

Swelled

I'm sick. Or at least I'm looking quite sick.

This morning I woke up and I had this strange feeling in my face. I went to bathroom, just to notice that half of my face was swelled. It wouldn't have been a bid deal, but after a shower it went even worst. I looked pretty much like The Hunchback of Notre Dame. And I'm not kidding.



So I decided to stay home. But my face is still as swelled as it was on the morning. I know that I should probably see a doctor or something, but I don't know how to. If I was in Viiala my mother would have told me what to do. But here there is nobody to tell me what to do and to help me. So I just try to wait and see if it gets any better. And if it's not, I'm moving to a cathedral.

Sometimes I really hate to be adult. I don't cope with these kind of issues. And I was pretty much raised to avoid doctors, anyway.

Random Facts

I don't know what is going on. I just posted something and now I feel like posting again. I'm becoming addicted. This time I want to share five random (but still useful) facts about me. I thought this could be a cool thing to do. So I do it. Now.

1. I have had a tumour in my face area when I was a child. It can recur.
2. I was bullied at school for about (4-)6 years until I moved away.
3. I'm not a nice person. Honestly.
4. I tend to smoke every once in a while, but I'm totally against alcohol.
5. I sing "Hotel California" in the shower when I'm alone at home.
   

Enough Said

I went back to H&M today. To see that violet leopard cardigan again. I seriously thought it would have been nice. But this time I really tried it on. Last time I tried it over my sweater. This time I tried it on a thin tee. And it was not cool. It was itchy and the sleeves were too saggy for me (it was sized 36, but 34 would probably have been too tight from the middle). The quality of it was a bit questionable too.

This fashion thing is really confusing. I remember the times when I had no clue about it. I just tried to copy what those "popular" girls used to wear (with bad or non-existing results). I entered to this girl world only a little while ago. I have always (since 98 actually) liked Lindsay Lohan, and when I started to read stuff about her and to see her pictures, I started also to check what she was wearing. And little later my friend told me about the Glamour Magazine, which totally hooked me. It's much more than just fashion, but the fashion sections are my favorites.

So at the moment I am very aware of the whole fashion thing. I know what is "in" and what is "out". I know what is a "must have" and what is a total "no-no". But knowledge isn't everything. No matter how hard I try, I don't know what I should wear. I mean, seriously, most of those "high" fashion things that are OK in London or so, are not OK here. Everything should be damped down, and I don't know how to do it, and still look "chic".

And I'm a student. And quite frugal too. I can only buy my clothes from H&M or any similar stores because I like to buy quality cosmetics. I know that H&M got a bit bad reputation around here, but all my favourite clothes are from there, and they are still unbroken and in good shape. I really would like to dig in to this fashion thing, but I should have like a mentor or something first. I just suck alone.

I normally stick to just one outfit per time. Just now it is: black v-neck tee under a black v-neck sweater, nearly skinny jeans (they're not as tight as they could/should be, but I have always thought them as a skinny jeans, even though they are probably more just straight ones), and a black scarf with silver lines. Shoes used to be brown flat ones, but I broke them yesterday, so now I use this outfit with brown sandals with wedge heels. Both quite vintage from my mother, so is my black leather bag. Hair I have started to put on the side, it's like the easiest hairdo ever. I also like to use bronze/brown eye-shadows and pendants to polish the look even more. I know this is quite typical (and boring) solution, but it think it works fine with me. Or at least I believe so.

Enough said.

Hood-Vest-Thing

So I went to Sello. To "shop", which in my language means pretty much same as "spending time, but not money". I found few items I liked.

First of all I liked this cardigan. As you all know, leopard pattern is quite trendy at the moment, but this is just not as wild. It's more like very damped and delicated version. I also like the shape. I used to have quite similar shaped cardigan which I liked a lot, but unfortunately I managed to shrink it.

The next item is a mini skirt. I'm not a mini person, but there was few very shirt skirts I liked, and which I thought would look very good with opaque tights and wedges (but I don't have opaque tights, nor wedges). It was not similar with the picture. Pattern was quite similar, but it was bigger. The hem was also more loose, and there was a wide rib in the hip.

I also liked this very weird hood-vest-thing made of artificial fur. I am really sorry that I could find any picture of such cloth. It really was something. It's not my style (like I have a style), but it was really warm and comfortable.

Stuff. Stuff. Stuff.

I knew this was coming. I overslept this morning. I have done it like million times. I use my cell as an alarm clock. So my cell alarms. I press the "snooze" button and put the cell at my side. And I fall asleep again. And in some point during ten minutes I roll on my cell. And when it alarms, I can't hear it and finally I push some button with my body and it stops. It's always the same story.

But I decided to go to my second lecture. It was that same boring lecture again. I have no idea why I went there. I once again understood nothing. I made a sudoku puzzle for a while, but then I made some mistake and gave up since I couldn't track down which number sucked.

Today I have planned to go to a library. It's very near, so it's not a big deal. I had this book reserved and I have to pick that up. I'm a bit shamed for because it's an Everwood book. A juvenile book. Definitely a juvenile book. And I'm nearly twenty. But I heard they were OK and I love Everwood.

And I also thought that I could go shopping. Since Aleksi is paying for the food, I have even more money to spend. But I'm not so very good at spending, so in the end of the month there is usually about (50-)80% left of my so called budget. And there is like lots of things I like need. Like clothes. Shoes. Socks. Underwear. Make-up. Cosmetics. Books. Stuff. Stuff. Stuff.

Travel Card

There is this one think I don't like about living in Espoo. It's that I go to school in Helsinki. It costs more. I just loaded 103 days to my travel card and it was about 125 euros. It would be only half of it if I lived and studied in a same city. And there is only a few kilometers to the city limit.

Unbelievable Shoes

Part One:

I bought shoes. I know I'm going to regret it later, but at the moment I'm totally loving them. I bought them for several reasons:

a) They are black
b) They got high heels
c) They make my feet look so much smaller
d) They are quite trendy
e) They make me feel more adult
f) Aleksi loved them too

And these are the reasons which probably make me regret:

a) They were quite expensive since I'm not going to wear them so often (44e)
b) They are not quality shoes, not even real leather (from Dinsko)
c) They are a bit tight and I worry that they may be way too tight after all
d) I can't walk on heels anyway and I will probably break some of my bodyparts when trying it

Part Two:

So they were way too tight. I wear them for like 15 minutes and my feet just died. I went back to the store to change them. That other pair was way too big, but at least it didn't hurt. I decided to take them even though it meant that I would have to wear thicker socks.

I went back to home. I put them on, and I realized that there was that quite big scratch on the side. I looked it for a while, and finally I decided it's not OK. I went back to the store once again. To change them again. But there was only one pair more, and it was even more scratched. I looked those shoes for a minute, and then I made the final decision. I gave up. I returned them for good.

But they were perfect. They just weren't meant to happen to me. And that salesgirl probably laughed at me inside. I don't care. I don't want shoes that don't fit, or which look as they were already used.

The shoe haunt will continue.

We Are Plants

OK. Finally. School was pretty much from hell today. So boring, so useless. I just wanted to go home, but no. I get home about 16.20 pm or something. Then I make some noodles with vegetables to myself since I don't lunch at school and I was a bit hungry. It was a quite tasty meal after all. I usually eat noodles with the boiling water so it's more like a soup. That spiced water is really rich too, you know, fills your stomach with less calories.

Julia was sick today, so school was even more boring since I barely had anyone to talk to. I tried to company with some older students at my group but it was a bit weird. I noticed that some of them said "Juulia" and some, like me, said "Julia". I have always thought that those are different names and should pronounced as they are written. And "Juulia" sounds quite ugly but "Julia" is a pretty one. Anyway.

I cleaned our digs today. It was really messy so I finally decided to make it all very nice and clean. Or at least tidy if not clean.

I also did pilates for an hour again. I really love it. Everybody should try it. It's so damn addictive. I don't know about other pilates programs, but Winsor Pilates really is something. I have almost give up with jogging. It's just so hard to go out there when the weather is not nice and run and get really sweaty and puff and puff and do it all in public. Pilates is much nicer, more private, still hard and still effective. Yes, I can talk about pilates for hours.

Aleksi was a bit funny today. The light from our bathroom decided to go black. So we needed a new one. Since I was busy Aleksi decided to go to the shop alone. And you know... Men. He came back with a lamp that really fitted and so. But it was for plants and fish. And I recognized all this immediately when I saw the package. He didn't want to believe me when I said it's not suitable even though it fits. So he had to try it. And yes, it's was like neon violet. And he was like "how could I have known it was for plants". And I said "Well, because of the package got a picture of a plants and fish instead of happy people and because it also said it was named "Fluora" and it got a text which said that it "promotes healthy growth".

Tough Guy

So no school today. It should have been fun. Thought wrong. Anyway. I woke up quite early and did some nerd business like usually. Washed some dishes and stuff. I was doing well. Then my aunt called me. She wanted to buy me a pair of shoes. I agree with the idea, so I went to see her. So we looked shoes. And then clothes. Nothing. I found one nice pair, but they were exactly the same as I already had, but they were brown and the texture was a bit different. So after all those hours she bought me a... saucepan. It is a Hackman Kovanaama so it was also a very expensive one. It must be good too. Aleksi is going to love it. He does the cooking, not me. That's why I asked for it.

My aunt also brought me stuff that my mother sent me from Viiala. It included pink pants, shirt I forgot there, pack of cookies and pistachios. I already ate those cookies and now I feel guilty. I should go to jogging today. I really, really should. But I'm quite tired and bored and so. Yesterday I did pilates for an hour. I wasn't so lazy then. I don't know what to do. I definitely should do something. I'm gaining even more weight. I know even though I'm not weighting myself regularly this time.

Back To school

Not nice. School is not nice. I'm already depressed. I thought we would have only like couple hours, but it turned out that we had this big and boring professional lecture. I almost sliced my wrists. Anyway. I spend those hours reading the British edition of the Glamour magazine. Without that I would have been really desperate. That lecture was not for us, but for advanced dentist students. So it's pretty obvious why I didn't quite get it and read that magazine instead. Luckily tomorrow will be free, and Friday too.



My emergency pack.

This is also the day when I'm starting to diet officially again. Last week I like ate all the time and hardly exercise. I gained about 7 pounds. It's so not cool. That's going to change since now I have to loose about 11 pounds. Or little less, or little more. I don't know yet. Enough to make those white jeans fit. But because today is a bit rainy, I don't risk my dryness and go to hogging tomorrow. Instead I'm going to do some pilates. I even have a new mattress.

I just turned on TV to watch Everwood. But I found out it does not come anymore. I was a bit chocked since I really love that show. Luckily I'm downloading the whole season 3, but it takes time to come.

Invent Your Scent

I went to Sello today with Aleksi. He wanted to give me a present because of my holiday is about to end and my school starts tomorrow. And because he likes me very much, of course. He bought me Invent Your Scent Eau de Toilette called "Citrella" from The Body Shop.



" A citrusy and energetic fragrance that's light and zesty."

The idea of the "Invent Your Scent" fragrances is very simple but still exciting:

"You can create a fragrance to match your mood, beginning with our nine fragrance personalities. Mix any two together and you've got another. With so many combinations, you can create a fragrance nearly as unique as you."

"All nine Invent Your Scent fragrances combine with each other so you can never make a mistake."

So there is nine different scents, and you can wear them alone or mix them together to make a new one. And Citrella is definitely not my first one. Here is my collection:



Aleksi has bought me almost everyone. Altaro and Beleaf are from my sister. If you can count, you will notice that there is only two fragrances missing; Zinzibar and Minteva. I don't really like them, so I'm probably not going to buy them or asking them as a present.

We also went to Roberts Coffee. I drank Hot Chocolate and Aleksi Chococcino. Very good.

Amusement Park

I thought I should post something about this day. Since this day has been quite exciting too. I went to Linnanmäki amusement park with Virpi. It was a private event so we didn't have to pay anything. I took some pictures once again.



This was the thing we were in when I took these pictures below:



Nice views over the bay.



It looked very stable.


I had to take this pictures since I like trains. Or I like to travel by them.



This is my friend Virpi. I bet she doesn't want her picture to be posted but I post it anyway. It's all mine.



I marked the place where I lived couple years ago.

After Linnamäki we went to a flea market which was near. Virpi is a My Little Pony collector so she wanted to check the supply there. She hit the bull's eye. I gave her earlier one pony (the white one) and she found three more. Here they are.

They still have their prize tags attached.

Back In Business

So now I'm officially back. I came late yesterday, and I was really tired since I didn't slept so well in Viiala. It was too dark and too quiet. Anyway. I almost missed my train. I actually had to run with all my stuff. And, boy, I had some stuff to carry. But I made it.

So I made some promises about pictures and so. I'm going to fulfill them now.

Trip to Yli-Kirra

I went to this place called Yli-Kirra with my mother and her friend. I have been there like several times already, but I like it quite much. It's like one big outdoor museum. We spend many hours just wandering how those people back then did all their things. It's fascinating, really.

These two above are some kind of traps. I wonder if they ever really ate meat...

This is the center of the place. There are lots of other places too, but those two buildings are like the "main" houses or something. Where they slept on ate. Beds were so short. I bet they were midgets back then.

Dead animals. I have no idea for what these were, but they were so dead.



My mother and her friend having a picnic. They asked me to take a picture.



Fashion?



It's not a toilet. It's a house and I bet that there used to live one big family together.



This is a map of Yli-Kirra. Lots of places to see as you can see.

Other Stuff

I didn't do anything so special, but I read a lot. These books I read during one day (well, in 12 hours more likely).

1170 pages actually. I read almost that same amount of pages during next day too. This was a book I was quite fond of. I know I'm way too old for that, and it's too much lovey-dovey stuff, but I just adored it. I think the cover of it is one of the most beautiful ones I have ever seen. And YES it's a vampire story.

My mother bought me some stuff. For example these jeans and this book:



Only seven euros from Vapaa Valinta. My mother fixed them for me.



I love the movie. And in this case, the movie was first! From flea market: only 50 cents.

I also made these, as I said I would. They are notebooks covers made of fabrics I like. They make my notebooks look more personal.



The Funeral

There were also a funeral I had to participate in. The dead person wasn't important to me, so thought them as a party where I can dress up and stuff. I forget to pack shoes (well... actually, now when I think about it, I don't even have matching shoes for that dress) so I had to borrow a pair. They were a bit too big and they really hurt my feet. But they were vintage.

The priest was a bit gay so I made fun out of him with my uncle. We laught all the time about everything even though we should have been like really sad and stuff. I had a great time.