Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Our clients have a sense of humour... Or they're just pissed.

Ooh, such a big box! I can't wait to see what's in there!

Umm... Where is all the good stuff?

How about a smaller box next time? Or an envelope?

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Wanna play cards?

I got bored so I decided to do a little crafting. I'm allergic to cash so I use my Visa Electron a lot, especially when I'm buying groceries. So I thought it would be an excellent idea to make a nice pocket for my cards. Now I don't have to carry my wallet with me all the time.

"If you have thirty dollars, then give me half that will do alright."

Friday, June 20, 2008

History repeating

Today my niece kept asking me questions about ex. She's old enough to realize that he's gone but not old enough to really understand why. How do you explain your break up to a kid? Do you even have to?

She asked things like why don't we live together anymore and where does he live now. Of course I knew she would ask something eventually but I didn't understood how hard it could be to answer her. And I didn't answer her at all and my brother-in-law said to her that these things are for grown-ups.

I wish I could have offered her some answers. My ex was part of her life and in a way I took him away from her. It reminds me of how my other sister broke up with her boyfriend when I was a kid. I was devastated. And I did the very same to her, expect she's younger than I was so hopefully she won't be as bitter as I was.I still miss my sister's ex sometimes, he was like the brother I never had.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

I almost got killed by a mink. So fuck lung cancer.

Every member of my family smokes. They just don't know that sometimes I smoke too. I know that my parents wouldn't be mad at me and that they wouldn't even lecture me. I'm not sure if they even cared really. But it would totally ruin my reputation: I'm the good girl here, the white sheep, the one who does everything right. And I really like keep things this way. Though my brother-in-law probably knows because he reads my blog. Or at least I think he does. Anyway. If he knows then he could sometimes offer me a smoke. That would be nice.

I know it's quite weird that I keep on blogging about my lame occasional smoking habit but I just like smoking so much. And I consider myself lucky that I'm not addicted to it. That would be really nasty. I like smoking mostly because it makes me feel good. But I also like it because it makes me feel a bit rebellious. Like I said, I've always been the good girl. I don't drink and I don't even swear (I swear only when I'm writing because writing lacks facial expressions). I'm old enough to smoke legally but I still feel guilty while doing it. I guess it has a lot to do with Hannes. He's strictly against smoking and he's the one giving me the lectures. He makes me feel that smoking, no matter how rarely it's done, is definitely the most horrible thing in the world.

But there is actually a real reason why I'm blogging about this...

I'm in Viiala visiting my parents. And since my family doesn't know that I smoke, and I really wanted to smoke, I said to my parents that I'm going for a walk. So I could smoke in privacy. There is a nice little lake nearby so I went there and sat on the dock to enjoy my smoke and the lovely view:

Smoking can harm you but more likely it just makes you look really dumb.

And I saw a mink! And it was quite scary actually. I had already finished my smoke when I heard some noises behind me. I turn to see what's making them. And I see this brown thing that looks like a cat. Then I realize that it's not a cat. It's a mink. I go closer to take a picture and I expect it to scare away. But it doesn't. And I get closer and closer and then it starts to hiss! And I realize that it's blocking my way out. It's too close to the dock and it looks like it could actually attack me! I walk back to the end of the dock and jump up and down to make some noise but it won't scare way. But then after a while it just swims away and I'm free to walk back home. Hooray!

Unfortunately my camera phone really takes crappy pictures so I didn't manage to get a decent picture of my mink. But I'm posting one anyway:

Click to enlarge. It's the brown thing in the middle!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Firefox 3 Download Day 2008!

In case you don't know yet, today is the official Firefox 3 Download Day. And Firefox is out of doubt the best browser right now. So go get it if you don't already have it. Or download it anyway since they're trying to set a Guinness World Record for the most software downloaded in 24 hours. Or something like that, it's pretty cool anyway.

Download Day 2008

"I'm cute, download me!"

Monday, June 16, 2008

Amoena goes girly

I finally used my the Body Shop gift token. My oldest sister gave it to me for Christmas. I guess it was literally the best Christmas present she's even given to me. She usually sucks with presents (I'm not complaining though) so this gift token thing was a really nice surprise.

I don't know why it took so long for me to use it. I live right next to the Body Shop and I literally love all their products. It could have been hard though, but actually I knew pretty much right away what I wanted. And this is what I got:

Shimmer Cubes Palette 06
Shimmer Cubes Palette 06: Honeycomb, dark chocolate, marshmallow and chocolate chip.

I'm not really into expensive make-up and I've always rather invested on cleansers and toners. But I happened to have one of these palettes already. I bought it from sales because I wanted to try pink eyeshadow. And that pink became my favorite for years. Pink suits just everyone. Anyway. So since I knew this stuff is some serious luxury, and since I was running out of bronze eyeshadow, this decision could not have been easier. And by the way, I really like how every color is in its own tiny plastic box (for some reason it can't be seen in the picture). When I travel I can only take one color with me and save some space. I'm a sucker for these things.

I never thought myself as a label whore. But I guess I am one too since I always opt for certain brands for certain cosmetic products. I buy my cleansers, toners and moisturizers from a pharmacy and right now my favorite brands are Vichy and Aco. For foundations and powders I choose Lumene because they have really light shades to match fair Finnish skin. I don't use much lipstick because it always wears out so soon. But when I do use, my choice is Maybelline, and Rimmel is definitely the best brand for mascaras and eyebrow grooming. For haircare I choose XZ because their products are 100% silicone-free (and cheap too).

And I do have a scent. I've been using Laura by Laura Biagiotti for over ten years now. Of course I have other perfumes too but I put on some Laura when I simply like to smell like me.

Friday, June 13, 2008

That's cool. But I got some work to do.

I'm taking a short break and when I come back my desk looks like this:

They're doing this to me often. Sometimes they just take my chair (then I sit on the table and look pissed) and sometimes they push my laptop away and take over the whole desk. It makes me feel like a ghost. Like hello? I'm totally working there too, and I need my laptop and my desk! It's not cool what you're doing to me.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Amoena visits Hammaslääkärikeskus Helmi and likes the place

Feel free to call me crazy but I just love to visit a dentist. It's like one of my many favorite things. Seriously. That's why I wanted to study to be a dental hygienist in the first place. Anyway. Last Friday I visited a new dental office. It's called Hammaslääkärikeskus Helmi and it's located in Leppävaara, Espoo.

I arranged my appointment via Internet. They have a special form for that on their website. I simply wrote to it when I would like to come and in less than an hour I received a SMS saying that they have made an appointment for me. It couldn't have been any easier.

I've seen Hammaslääkärikeskus Helmi from the outside more than once and it always looked like a very nice place. But it looked even nicer when I actually got inside. I wonder if they have intentionally chosen such a calming color for their reception:

This picture is stolen from their website. I took one picture too, and it was actually quite decent one, but there was a lady standing behind the desk so I thought it wouldn't be appropriate to post it here.

While I was waiting for my appointment I filled my anamnesis. I had to write down where I work and it was actually a bit funny. I happen to work in Hammasväline Oy, which happens to be their wholesaler of dental instruments and equipments. So we were technically like each other's clients.

Sauli, the dentist who treated me, was really good at his job and he was nice (and quite cute) too. I've met many dentists because of my former studies, but so far he's been my absolute favorite. He totally made me trust his expertise and he was also very approachable. It was easy to ask questions from him and I felt that he gave me his honest opinions. I think that's important when forming a doctor - patient relationship.

Even though Hammaslääkärikeskus Helmi may seem quite trendy, it's totally affordable. Of course it's not cheap since it's a private dental office, but it's not too pricey either. My visit cost 43 euros (with KELA card!) and it included a checkup and a prophylaxis. I glanced through their overall price chart while I was waiting for my appointment and all their prices seemed very reasonable.

I'm blogging all this because I know how hard it is to find a good dentist. So if you happen to live in Leppävaara or nearby, and you're planning to visit a dentist, please consider Hammaslääkärikeskus Helmi.

UPDATE: Basic wisdom teeth removal costs 40€. That's not much.

It's late at night but I'm feeling bright

I have a confession to make. (I'm sorry, Hannes, I know you're totally going to dislike this.) But little while ago I bought a pack of cigarettes. It was mostly because I was depressed.

I'm a big girl and I'm not ashamed for the fact that I smoke sometimes. It's like this one bad habit I allow myself to have. I just have some simple rules to control this. For example I never ever smoke if there's a friend present who doesn't smoke. OK, I have bended this rule, but should every rule be bended like once before they become like real rules? And I don't usually buy my own smokes. I just grab them somewhere if I want to smoke.

OK. I guess there's nothing to justify this. I smoke. I know it's not good for me. I don't do it often and if someone important enough asks me to not smoke ever again, I would gladly give up. Like there's something to give up. I've been smoking like this for years and still I'm not even a bit addicted. I guess I miss than gene.

I have my own apt now. And my own balcony. And no one to tell me I can't smoke there. So sometimes I just sit there, smoking and listening to the traffic. It makes me feel strangely connected with the world. I know I could feel the same way without smoking. It just helps me to focus.

Anyway. This all reminded me of the last poem I wrote. It was years ago and I never really finished it. It was just something I scrabbled down while I was sitting there. I'll just post it here even though it's in Finnish:
Öisin parvekkeella
kuuntelen elämisen ääniä
valoja ikkunoissa
tunnustelen tietä koteihin

En oppisi tuntemaan sinua
vaikka avaisit verhosi

Tämä kaupunki
minun jalkojeni juuressa
niin kuin minäkin
I guess I just tried to express how lonely I sometimes feel. I have everything around me but I don't feel so connected. I don't know why feeling so is important to me. I just feel like I need to be part of something bigger. But don't we all?

Friday, June 06, 2008

Note to self

Instead of digging clothes back from the laundry bin, you could actually wash the laundry.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Why I have been quiet lately

I've been sad and depressed lately. I don't know why. Maybe it's because of the summer. I have started to miss those summers when everything was still so very simple. When I was naive and the world was oh so open to me. And when it was just me and V. and playgrounds and cigarettes and silly chats.

I don't miss V. though she was out of doubt one of the greatest friends I've ever had. I kinda hope that she doesn't read my blog anymore. Or maybe she does. I don't know what kind of a stalker she is nowadays. Anyway. She changed and she wanted to get rid of me. I understand that. And I still believe that it was her who ended our friendship. I might have had some part in it, but it was her. I was here, I was always here. She was never there, she never invited me in.

Anyway. So I've been sad. And I have never been this low. And I'm not even deep. I'm just... sick. I have had these periods of darker thoughts ever since I remember. I'm used to this. I'm just worried that my friends, hopefully I still have some, aren't. I don't need them to save me when I tell them how I feel. I just want them to understand that I'm going trough something and I need some time get over this.

And I will get over this. Like I have before. I might just need some time. Or some J.R. Either will do.

Monday, June 02, 2008

Service Pack did no service to me

On Thursday I tried to install Service Pack for my Vista but it started to act up. I'm not sure what went wrong, but according to Hannes I probably shouldn't have booted it in the middle of the process, even though I am quite sure it was already dead by then. And it remained dead no matter what. Anyway. Since Hannes happens to be my official Vista support I asked him to come over and fix it for me.

I know, that's lame. I should be a good nerd and fix it by myself. But I have already complained here on my blog how nerdism isn't so black and white. You may know something about something and nothing about something else. For example I'm specialized in blogging and social web stuff and I also know something about CSS/HTML and other web design related stuff. But I know absolutely nothing about hardware or how to handle specific Windows Vista errors...

So on Friday Hannes came by. And he totally fixed my Vista by unplugging something (according to Hannes you should not have TV attached to your laptop while doing these things) and something something something. I'm not sure what he did but my laptop is totally working again. Yay! And then we made rhubarb fool together and ate it with vanilla ice cream.